Trusting in God

Trusting in God sounds almost cliche, But to really truly trust, fall back into His arms and let Him guide your life is really not that easy.  I'm one of those people... maybe slightly controlling, just a touch.  So if I want something my attitude is, I go out and get it, or make it happen.  I'm pretty tenacious when I don't let my fears get in the way.  So trusting in God and letting go......just letting Him have the plan, and me not know where its going,  taking it one step at a time, is VERY challenging for me.  


Psalms 119:105  says "Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path."  A lantern or a lamp would light up only one, maybe a couple of steps that we could take if we were in the darkness of night (maybe not knowing God's plan).  But God says His word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path, not a spotlight to my destination.  I'm always so busy trying to figure out where the destination is and how to plow my way to get to it that I miss everything God wants to do. And I think many times I've missed out on His plan. And if I were to just get to the destination, I wouldn't have developed the patience, humility, skills and character that you get from the journey which is needed to be able to stay rooted in His bigger plans.


But its amazing when I just let go, and let God. He always does exceedingly and abundantly more than I could hope or imagine. It blows me away. This Easter was a testament to that for me. And I didn't even have to stress about it. He just paved a way.... Usually though, He does require me to be making steps moving on what His word washes over my heart. In this case it was serving at my church on Easter for every service. The things He did to bless my time, serving still have me in awe.  But He requires I keep my eyes focused on Him and even though I have so many faults, He still uses me and lights my way. And maybe one day I might know where He is lighting the way to, but I suspect, I will always be growing and learning and accomplishing things only by His grace and mercy to bring Him the Glory. And I hope I will always be standing in awe at what God was able to do with this broken, cracked pot, for His Glory, so I will never think it was by something I did.